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Life Update

Published October 16, 2012 by Becca

Oy. So much going on. I’m not sure if I can even cover it all in 1 post. I’ve been very blue this past week or so. My best friend and I had a fight and aren’t speaking anymore since Labor Day. Don’t know if that will ever get patched up. So that’s brings me down to 0 close friends. And I’ve given up on my ex and getting together, so now I really have absolutely no one to talk to. Starting to get kinda lonely. But also getting used to it. No bueno. I joined that running class, so in 10 weeks, it’d be nice if a friend emerged from that. We shall see. I’m keeping an eye out for socializing opportunities, but friendships don’t happen over night, and I’m gun shy, so it’s gonna be even harder for me. Maybe some people just aren’t meant to have friends? But then again I suppose if I were less gun shy, I’d have more friends? It’s too hard. I dunno. I need a new Marissa. But there are only so many Marissas in the world (metaphorically speaking).

And then of course there’s dating.

One day. If I ever have time. Stupid night time job.

Stupid job. I don’t feel like hashing out the awful back story again, but needless to say, I’m starting to wonder if I can find myself a nice 9-5 desk job. Or something. Preferably 9-5. And hopefully it pays more than I currently make (which is very little, so it’s a very low bar to be fair). Maybe. We shall see.

Part of me is very inspired right now with this whole losing weight and getting healthy and I’m wishing I could do something with that now. I’ve been thinking an apparel store for plus-sized women (people?). It’d be great, as a plus-sized person, to be able to find all the bigger sizes in one spot. It’s frustrating never being able to just grab something because one brand’s XL may be just fine for me and another may not even be close. So in my shop, I wouldn’t even carry a certain brand if I found most plus sized girls couldn’t fit into it. And how great would it be for there to be a judgement free place where bigger girls can feel good about being active and fit and healthy?

And not that I’m a designer, but if I could find someone, it’d be great to have a specific athletic line just for plus sized women. Something that really considers making room for junk in the trunk! Lol. And for me, I haven’t found a long sleeved tech shirt I like cause I have chunky arms. I even found a XXL tech shirt at Target and I just couldn’t handle having the arms so damn tight on me. You would never see a built in bra in my tanks either. I’m only a C cup, so I can actually get away with them sometimes (though I haven’t run in one yet), but I think most girls would prefer to choose their support (I know I do), without worrying about the bulk with a shelf bra.

Oh and price point would be well below Lulumon. Personally, I’d like to see it around Target prices (if that’s even possible based on the material). I’m not a fan of paying more than $20-30 for a top, $40 for a sweatshirt, and $30-40 for bottoms.

In other news, I’m down just about 25 pounds now. Isn’t that awesome?! 25 pounds is no small number. And it’s been a slow crawl. I updated the Weigh-in Page. I kinda lost steam over the summer, though I didn’t gain the weight back. I made decent enough choices to be able to maintain basically. Which felt like a success in it’s own right. Losing 100 pounds is hard work, and it’s going to take a decent amount of time, so I like knowing that if I want to take a time out for whatever reason, I can do so without back sliding. That’s so important to me- as much as losing the weight. Not gaining it back. Ever. Well, except pregnancy. And I’d like to have the right tools and mindset to take off baby weight too.

This week has been a little rough. Being blue has kinda zapped my appetite so I haven’t been eating a whole lot the past few days, and then when I am hungry, I’m too lazy to eat properly, so I just eat something weird. Like a whole package of imitation crab with cocktail sauce. Or a bag of popcorn. For dinner. Fruit? Veggies? Not much. Protein? Not much. *Sigh*

Last week I ate randomly as well, but more, and stayed completely within points, and gained 2.2 pounds. THAT was frustrating. I’m hoping it was due to running the half marathon and storing water, or even gaining some muscle. According to my scale, I’m already back down to where I was the week before, and still 4 more days until the weigh in, so hopefully I can lose another pound. Especially since I’m eating so lightly.

I’m working on participating in the WW 8 week challenge. I really don’t want to set a weight goal, because as you can see, even with tracking and staying with in my points, I still gained 2.2 pounds! That’s nuts. So I don’t want to be disappointed by not meeting a time goal. My concrete goal is to track every day for the 8 weeks. I’m 2 1/2 weeks in and haven’t missed a day! Love it. Feel very happy with keeping up with that habit. It will be what gets me to my goal weight in the end (even if some weeks don’t always show success.)

Ok, well I’m up too late and need to get to bed cause I have therapy and work tomorrow.

More updates when something new happens! Haha.

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Tacos, Margaritas, and Midnight Runs

Published July 3, 2012 by Becca

I had lunch with my ex yesterday at a Cali-style taco joint we had been wanting to try since before we broke up. The taco joint delivered. I had an amazing mango margarita (for nerves), a classic fried cod taco, and a delicious veggie taco. I almost like the veggie one more, but that’s slightly because the sauce on the fish taco was a touch to spicy for me. I’m already wanting to go back. I totally missed the Baja Street Corn! Grilled corn with chili, cotija, and lime- mmmmmmmmmm.

The lunch went… Ok. It was awkward. We haven’t seen each other since March (though we’ve usually been texting), and things have been tense and heated. We kept it fairly light just talking about work and things like that. It got bumpy at the end when we were talking about if we want to do this again. I told him I’m still very much in love with him and I want to try again if he does. It’s a tough decision. We both hurt each other a lot. And I don’t know if we can work, but I’m willing to try again for a bit. He’s still trying to decide. We shall see.

Having a nice lunch set me up to not snack as much at work. I had a couple pieces of weird fried chicken, a couple dinner rolls, some iced tea. Not too bad really.

I got home before midnight last night so I figured that was a sign I should go running. I went on the path by the water which even at midnight was still well populated. There were people running, biking, walking, sitting on the benches. I love NYC.

I pushed myself much harder last night. I’ve been watching these guys on the Biggest Loser basically killing themselves and I thought it was dumb I wasn’t working harder. And it’s funny, as much as I kicked it up a notch, I’m still not sure I killed myself. Which is ok I guess. Nice to know my fitness is improving and I still have more in me.

I ended up doing intervals- I went to the 1st day of the 2nd week of C25k and ran fast the run segments (about 10:15/min mile) and jogged the walk segments (about 13:30 min mile). And I did it twice. For a total of 3.75 miles that includes the warm up and cool down walk (I need to figure out the distance from my apartment to the running path. Its probably about .2 miles one way).

I’m planning on killing it on the treadmill runs this week since running on a treadmill is easier.

And ending my post with some pics from last night:

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Wednesday Log and Weigh In

Published June 28, 2012 by Becca

Yesterday was an ok eating day.

I started the day with a “big” breakfast. 2 eggs scrambled with 2 TBS of cheddar. A slice of toast with some light butter and jam. And an 8oz glass of chocolate milk (11 points). It was adequately satisfying. But, in my opinion, not a lot of food for 11 points.

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I brought food to work to help with not eating junk. I brought 2 plums, a Fiber One bar, a Chobani yogurt, and my left over dinner.

I ended up eating the bar fairly early on. And then a plum. I ended up eating some of the family dinner cause it was fried chicken and mmm. I had 3 little wings and 1 drumstick. (8 points)

I saved my leftover dinner for today.

I dug into my yogurt towards the end of the night. I got a passion fruit flavor to try because I LOVE passion fruit and I really love it creamy. I wanted to love it, but they left the seeds in and that just grosses me out. So I only ate half and probably won’t eat the other half. Sad face. But on the plus side I’ll try Chobani again. I hadnt liked Greek yogurt when I’ve tried it, but this wasn’t too bad yogurt wise.

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I shoved a few dinner rolls in me last night too though (5 points). I don’t always have time to have a proper snack (like yogurt) so popping bread or stray French fries in my mouth is just SO easy. But something I really need to work on. I need to find a satisfying snack that’s easy to eat like that. I’ve tried carrot sticks, but not satisfying. I’m usually craving something salty and that ain’t it. I’ll find something.

I was also extremely stressed out. I had a lot to make for my dinner service that night and it was annoying my coworker didn’t give me a heads up. Some of that bread was stress bread. Even the fiber one bar was. I didn’t calm down until like 9pm! When I was finally caught up! Ugh.

When I got home, I ended up having one of my Magnum minis. I had just 4 points left. Use’m or lose’m. Those are a perfect size. And it’s my favorite ice cream bar ever so it’s entirely satisfying. 4 points will have more weight once I get smaller, but it fits perfectly in my food budget right now.

One thing I haven’t mentioned- when I’m drinking water usually, I mostly just drink tap, but I often splash a little cranberry juice in it, just for some flavor. I haven’t been counting points for it because it’s usually just a tablespoon or 2 at a time, but I’ve noticed if I drink a lot of water in a day, I probably have 4-6 oz of juice which is definitely 2-3 points I think. Well if anything, it’s deducted from my weekly allowance. Which I never use all of. And sometimes barely any.

Yesterday was weigh in day. I can’t get to a meeting until Friday, so I used my home scale and it was just a .6 loss. And I definitely ate more this week, though completely within my points. I actually used a fair amount of my weekly allowance. Almost half! But .6 is still a loss. And maybe it’ll show more on the WW scale Friday? And it’s nice to know I can indulge in a milkshake and still lose weight.

Winning with Weight Watchers.

Cross training Motivation

Published June 27, 2012 by Becca

So far I’ve had zero motivation to do some cross training. It was a minor miracle I did that yoga the other day, but my back hurt so much, I just had to.

I can’t seem to find the same determination for cross training that I have for running. I don’t know why. I think having a half marathon goal helps since I have something tangible I’m working towards. And I don’t feel like I have that with cross training (though I do have that goal for 15 pushups in a row…).

And I know cross training would improve my running. My core is weak, to say the least. (Hello back pain?) And I’ll maybe reach my fitness and weight loss goals faster. And it’ll help me look good. I want to be toned and thin. Not flabby and thin.

Ugh!! What is this?? Why is it so hard to just pop in a DVD and do some crunches?? I don’t have any sports equipment and no budget for it (my electricity is about to be turned off as it is if I don’t pay it. But I have to pay rent too. Hard decision), so workout DVDs I already have or what’s on OnDemand is all I have right now. I even hooked up my old play station to play the P90x but I bailed cause I was hungry.

*Sigh*

I didn’t do it yesterday cause I didn’t feel like it. And I was going to since I cut my run short.

But this weekend I will. Friday I’m going to my WW meeting and running for sure. So Saturday is the best day to do it after work. Immediately after work. No nap. Ill make sure to eat before I head for home so I’m not too hungry. I’ll get home and change and do the back, arms, and chest DVD. All upper body cause my long run is Sunday so I want my legs to be somewhat rested. Hear me internets?? Barring any exigent circumstances, I’m committing to that P90x workout.

And done.

Tuesday Log

Published June 26, 2012 by Becca

Sometimes my days off go too quickly. This week, they did. And now I have 5 days in a row of work hell. Blah.

Today was a little better eating wise. I started off with some raisin bran for breakfast (8 points) and then went for a run. I had 3 on the books, but only ran 2 miles and walked another half home.  It was totally mental. (8 activity points)  I did choose a hilly path for the last mile which psyched me out.  On the other hand, it would be nice to have some sort of differential between long runs and regular runs, so I may just keep my “weekday” runs to 30 mins or so for the next week or 2, just until I start doing hour+ long runs.

I ate the other half of my cantaloupe for a post run snack.  Mmmm.  I’m not sure why I didn’t buy more today at the store.  Kinda kicking myself right now.

But I did get some ingredients for a yummy dinner.  I stocked up on pasta cause it turned out I was basically out- they were only $1 a box!  Love that.  So tonight I made some bowtie pasta with broccoli, onion, garlic, tomato, and chicken in a yummy cream sauce.  (Restaurant secret- use the pasta water to bulk up your sauces.  The starch in the water helps from watering it down too much).  I used some light cream and 2%milk, added some parmesan cheese and an Italian cheese blend.  OMG it was sooooo delicious!!  I made a bunch so I could eat more tomorrow, so I kinda guessed on the portion sizes of the sauce.  It came to 21 points with my guessing, but I don’t think I had that much sauce.  But I went overboard with the pasta.  I over compensated cause last time it was so little.  I was also really hungry.  I’ll go easier on the pasta tomorrow.

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OMG amazing chicken, broccoli, pasta. (21 points?)

I was really, really craving something sweet today. I wanted brownies but was resisting getting a box. I was looking for the Fiber One brownies to try, but couldn’t find them. I did find some of their chewy granola bars and ended up getting Chocolate Caramel Pretzel. Oh my stars it was delicious!!! And for only 2 points! I’m going to have to find some coupons and sales and stock up on these. I just have to be really good with only having 1. Even when stuff is individually packaged, I have a hard time stopping at 1. I’m gonna try the trick of putting it somewhere inconvenient.

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Super delicious Fiber 1 bar (2 points)

I’m also really excited because Magnum, my most favorite ice cream bar EVER, just started making minis, and I did see those at the store so I picked up a box.  They’re only 4 points each so that’ll be a really nice dessert to have around.  I may have one tonight since I still have 7 points left today.  Mmmm

I will leave you with this nice picture of me and my kitty cat (since I didn’t take a running pic).

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Me and my fluffy bunny, Abby

Monday Log

Published June 25, 2012 by Becca

Today was not a great eating day. :-/ And I don’t mean in the overeating way.

I started the day with some “yoga.” It was lots of back stretching and a couple yoga poses. OMG you guys- it really did help my back! I found it on OnDemand. It was perfect. I’ll keep using that to help stretch my back. And it was only like 20 minutes. I gave myself an activity point for it, just cause it was something I needed to do. Though- downward dog is no joke. That’s a really hard pose!  My whole body is so tight- I kinda want to get into yoga now and work on my flexibility (though it’ll be easier once my big belly doesn’t get so in the way!).

I was going to take a walk, but the weather was insane today. A huge storm woke me up at 8:30 for a bit, and when I got up later it was sunny. When I went to walk at 2, it was raining again. So I ate a plum and did laundry. The rain kept coming back, so the walk never happened. Eh. It happens. I don’t really love walking anyways. Lol. Maybe.

I got hungry since I only had a plum and made myself 3 eggs with cheese and salsa. The salsa was a fail. I didn’t eat everything. (6 points)

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Salsa fail

Today was an aimless day. I had all good intentions to go to the grocery store to get some produce for the next few days. But I was feeling really cranky, low, and lonely and just wanted cake so I avoided the store and eating until I could figure out something. I didn’t really have anything in the house so I just made some pasta and red sauce. Which wasn’t so filling since I was trying to be care of portion control. (5 points)

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Puney pasta

 

I finished the night with a bowl of raisin bran.  (9 points)

*Sigh*

Here’s to making tomorrow a better day.  I have a workout with a friend planned and a run on the books- 3 miles.

Weekend Log

Published June 24, 2012 by Becca

I’m a little light on pictures for this weekend. I don’t always remember to take pictures, especially at work.

But I was successful with my tracking this week! 7 days! And I’ll keep going. It really makes me stop and think about HOW MUCH I’m eating. I’m measuring food and it’s really helping me from eating until being stuffed.

Saturday I treated myself to an Everything Bagel with some cream cheese before work. I had the girl go easy on the cream cheese so it was only about 2 TBS and I only ate the top half. Though it was more like the top 2/3 they way they cut it. (9 points)

I ended up eating “breakfast” which I treated as lunch at work. One of the chefs made a quiche for us and I gave myself a small piece at first, but it was so amazing I had the other half of that piece. OMG. So good. (A total guess of 11 points)

I also splurged on some Sprite. I was hot and sleepy and watching everyone else drinking soda and I caved. And it was delicious. Oh well. (8 points)

And to finish the day, which I planned for by deciding to use some of my weekly stash- I had a cookies and cream milkshake. And it was exactly what I had been wanting for a few days now. (Well, they put a tad too much milk in it for me- I like it thicker…) It was perfect. And worth it. All 25 points of it.

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Mmmmmmm (25 mother fucking points!!!!)

I had a dinner planned, but I ended up going to bed early to work a double today.

I woke up early to run and it was so beautiful.  A little warm in the sun, but otherwise perfect.  I had a peach before my run to help fuel.  My run consisted of 2 cycles of 6min Run/1min Walk/4min Run/1min Walk/6min Run with a warm up and cool down for 3(+) miles. (6 activity points) I had some thirst quenching chocolate milk post-run. (5 points)

Today’s work breakfast was eggs, home fried potatoes, and bacon.  I had a scoop of eggs I estimated to be about 2 eggs.  3 pieces of potato and 1 strip of bacon.

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Eggs, potatoes, bacon (7 points)

I kept eating though. I had skipped it yesterday, but the cheddar chive scone my coworker had made was calling to me. And it was incredibly good. I was going to call it my lunch, but I was hungry again at 3 and I had like 2/3 of a burnt grilled cheese sandwich we have. The best grilled cheese ever. With ham and tomatoes and on super crusty yummy bread. LOVE this sandwich. (6 points)

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Mmmm cheddar chive scone!! (7 points)

I brought in half my cantaloupe because I was prepared for needing to snacks since I was working a double- and I even brought a chicken breast in case dinner sucked! I ate a bunch of melon after the toastie, and right before dinner was served- which did not suck.

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1/2 cantaloupe (0!!)

Dinner was a mishmosh of BLTs and French toast. I’ve never had a BLT before because I didn’t really like raw tomato on sandwiches, so I just took half and then half a piece of french toast and some salad. Well oh my stars BLTS are amazing!!!! And the tomato really makes it!!! I’m an official BLT convert. I lost out on the other half of the sandwich 😦 And I was full anyways. I may need to have another BLT one day soon. I’ll see how I can make it WW friendly (preferably without it being turkey bacon). (12 points)

I’ll finish off with a pic from today’s run- I ran the 1st half through the park to help avoid the sun (I ran back along the water and I was dying in the sun, and it was only 8am!)

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